Lead Me To a Brighter Life♥

No Doubt

2010-07-30T20:17:00.000-07:00

Everyone was thinking what probs had occured

or maybe seeking for a solution that had existed since long ago.

maybe won't even care a thing.

To be honest, i have realised far long ago before u do.

No, am not blaming just things will fade,

as all of us know that.

Some were trying to redeem it,

but sadly not all.

But i am sure this is not what we wanna see,

because we do had feelings.

Let's pray to lord.

here's the pic that lil kids were praying.

They was sooo adorable,

holding their fries while still praying.

Even lil kids know how to pray.

i should pray more =)

Have to rush my assignments now..

tata~

short post

2010-06-01T06:59:00.000-07:00

hahahah lady gaga's satanic pose, lol!

sound so free to camwhore rite.

but im kinda busy recently,

lots of lots of assignments that waiting to be done..

and presentation is on week 5/6/7

abit rush because thr's 5 assignment,

i've not even done 1 yet =(

stress stress stress~

Last friday was the best momma-daughter's day ever.

After completed my homework,

went to pavillion with my mom to do some shopping.

hmm i think this is da 2nd time i shop alone with my mom..

maybe 3rd?

haiyah dunnoe la, but probably not more than 3times!

and we had sakae sushi for our lunch.

we ordered too much,

but manage to finish it all..

yum yum~

satisfied to the max.

By the way,

it was quite enjoy spending time with my momma

this pic was captured by a lousy photographer,

Gary Ong

while im on the way to fetch my mom after college

hahaha

he takes lousy photos eventhough he is using his pro cam.

but i still like this pic

cause it show that i've a pointed nose.

weee..

oh yea, im proud of myself!

cause i can drive quite well now~

maybe i can drive alone at this end of the month~

kay. im heading to bed now

sho sho sho sheepy!

gonna wake at 6am 2moro.

oyasumi!~

Life's good!

2010-05-22T02:12:00.000-07:00

Life's good!

my skin is getting much better compare with last year

because i din go out often

so i dont need to apply cosmetic all the time

accept i got acne or having real dark eye circle haha

im not afraid to expose my clean face anymore,

i don't mind what ppl said bout me or how they look at me now

or compare my before and after make up look

i am who i am, coz 1day they gotto accept me too.

and i got my car as my Bday present for this year,

the car number plate was 1216

as im a December baby haha

and..im owning a laptop soon,

im taking my studies serious and trying hard to brush up my english.

i din go to saloon for almost half year,

i cut my own bangs,

and its still in a very good condition hehe

no split ends but abit fizzy =X

i learnt how to be an independent girl,

i got my own way to release stress,

and think positively.

i dont curse people because we taught to love our enemies and neighbours

i love my family,

i pray for them every single day

and chat more with my mom,

we are getting closer

although we can only spend 4 hrs a day,

sometimes 2hrs if i sleep on 10pm.

this will never effect our feeling toward each other.

this year also my very 1st time to buy roses for my mom on mother's day

Many things happened on this half year,

i felt so emo on the 1st and 2nd month of 2010

because of my past.

but you can see God is doing his job,

he brighten up my life

and god blessed me so much.

Things were changing,

from sucks to sucker

everyone of us gotto came through this

so that we can grow

then things will slowly become better

life will turn good!

so thank god,my life's good

im happy

thr's nth to do with this pic, just to prove my eye lashes is longer than someone

HAHA

fluffy scrunchie♥

2010-05-21T07:53:00.000-07:00

These days im like a caveman!

im totally disconnected the trend and fashions outside =(

i din go out for shopping bout 3/4months d..can u imagine that!?

and No Any Fashion Magazines..just National Geographic and Reader's Digest

Im quite proud of myself..can tahan for this long! hahaha!

but i do did a lil bit of on9 shopping on couple weeks ago lah.. =X

oh yea, i bought this fluffy scrunchie on9 (which is a hair band) with a very low price!

Love it

and its nice if u go with a bun like

THIS

Ps the pic was not that nice haha

And..i can only make my bun'size as big as this due to my hair volume =((

am thinking a way to boost up my hair volume

so i bought bumpits!

but it does'nt help much.

Hmm, how bout a WIG? it will be fun ; )

still thinking buying a short 1 or long 1?

Besides, God do heard my voice!!

rmb i mentioned b4 my time table was so sucks..

but 2day i got my new time table and the timing was just Nice,

so rmb to pray serious abit everytime

hahaha

Today suppose going to one of the Pj's church.

But i overslept..im so so so sry guys!

no nxt time!

Moving on

2010-05-19T06:59:00.000-07:00

(w/o make up, as u can see how deep my dark circle is + eyebags)

I have to go to college everyday!

just like SPUS students.

why?

because my gp time table Sucks!

thr is 1 or 2 days i gotto take public transport to get to college

and get back from college by public transport everyday.

so tiring and it makes me sweats alot =(

No choice.

because...

my driving skill are poor

these few days i had been fetching tek bing and ahRu to tarc..and also my dad

then he will observe my skill while im driving.

As he found out im still so weak..

so im not allowed to drive alone (still under trainning)

maybe need to wait for a few months more.

hmm..recently thr's some guys from exclusive models agency keep on calling my cell.

asked me to interview at thier company.

its located at Damansara, and they gave me their website for more info.

and i found a pretty net fren were from this model agency.

i rejected once, with some really lame reason.

and i thought they will gave up.

but then they called again n again.

but Dont worry im not going..because

♥i've no time for this

♥ i don't have the model look

♥and the body shape as well

♥i cant speak properly when im nervous

♥had no confidents and.. YES! ~~I'M SHY!~~

what if they want to know my vital...NO

HAHAHA..

4 weeks to go.. A4J is coming!~

im so excited aldry..

but thr's a prob..i'll be absent for college bout 3 days

so..i might getting a warning letter? if i absent for 1 day equals 10%

nevermind, bobo will help me type the letter.

RIGHT? ; )

恐惧症心理测试

2010-05-14T21:59:00.000-07:00

Today i accidentally found this interesting post~
Kay,imma gonna do this Quest.

你是否患有社交恐惧症,得由精神科医生来进行判定.你可以通过以下的测试表测试一下你自己,可以根据测试结果来判定是否需要就医.下面为大家介绍恐惧症心理测试.

恐惧症心理测试题

1.经常想到亲人会有不幸？ -----(1)
2.有时担心会给自己或所爱的人带来伤害？----(1)
3.经常检查灯和水龙头关好没有？----(1)
4.在人群中受到推搡觉得反感？ ----(1)
5.有洁癖？多次反复地刷洗衣服和家具？是否老洗手？ ----(1)洗手
6.是否老是对自己和自己所干的事不满意，尽管已经努力想干好？----（1）
7.你是否总是尽量想提前离开有可能使你遭遇尴尬的境地？----（1）是的！
8.是否能轻易做出困难的决定？
9.你是否觉得有一种做某种多余事的必要？
10.经常觉得身上衣服有些不对劲？----（1）时常
11.有过回家检查门窗是否锁好的情况吗？----（1）是一定要检查的
12.老舍不得扔掉已没用的旧东西？----（1）对
13.是否老在想一般都是不由自主做的事？
14.是否有过老重复说同一句话或数一些没有必要数的东西的时候？---（1）重复说同一句话
15.睡觉前会把衣服整齐码好吗？
16.你是否干一些不重要的事也很认真？----(1)有时候
17.你周围的东西是否随时都要放在同一个地方？----（1）
18.会老做一些无足轻重的老动作吗？

测试结果：
从做出“是”的回答数的多寡看出其患上恐惧症的程度：
没到5个说明跟恐惧症沾不上边。
5～10个说明患有轻度恐惧症。
10～15个说明患有中度恐惧症。
15个以上就得注意了，有患上潜伏性神经官能症恐惧的危险

Shit！真的假的？
酱我不是患有中度恐惧症？

Ohana

2010-05-13T20:36:00.000-07:00

Cry will not settle anythings
Who don't know.
But when you are sad
your tears will drop automatically.

i've realise that,
when u are Happy, u'll makes others happy too
But When you're sad, u'll just sad alone.

Alone are good.
u asked ppl to leave u alone.
but sometimes u really need a friend or a thing ( maybe your pet) to talk to.
yea..ppl might say you've gone nuts. who will talk to their pets?

No.they talk to their pets because they are lonely,
they'd no friend willing to share thier sadness
or maybe,
they had no Friends at all.

Sadly, i've no friends..
and pets. (do fish count as a pet?)
i dont want to share my sadness inside d aquarium =(

My Ohana said to me'
ppl nowadays just tend to ignore others
and hurt them by intentionally,
but your life won't just stop, you still have to move on.

Why not jump out from the frame
and try to look at the overall picture?

yea, dont just look at a thing in the same angle.
try to look at it in different angle.
or the bright side. :)

Besides, Ohana means no one in the family will left alone behind,
or forgtotten!
(Lilo & stitch)

am trying hard

2010-05-04T21:24:00.000-07:00

i wanna be ur choosen one!
so that am trying hard to face everything with confidents.
But not guilt.
I know im what kind of ppl in the past, but after i choose to believe and to follow you.
My life had totally Changed! :)

Of course thr is still alot of things could'nt get out of my mind.like the attacking of SATAN.But this time i can handle it because ur thr for me!

am not a baby anymore.

Last time i will just Cry , shout and then hang myself. When thr is a thing happended, the 1st thing i'll do is to BLAME others and start to show my super duper princess temper. haha..

Oh ya, ppl scared to go out with me because...
i will Cry like nobody business if i found out i had a bad hair day, sucks make up or feel like im SOOOOOOOOOOO fat! HAHAHAHA stupid right!

Dont say the others,even myself also scared!
yea..who wanna go out with a volcano? anybody? HELLOOOOO??~~

i noe im soooooo teruk..
so i always pray to god to change myself and,
Forgive what i've done in the past. Lord,please forgive my sin!

Maybe ppl will say : walao, she sooooo Jia..i knew this girl for so long, she will change?! She's a Devil! when u saw her better run far far away!
her heart is Black, and u'll never know what she's going to do to u when u getting closer with her.

Only God knows..whether im willing to chg or not.
so dont judge me.

fitness concept roadshow at Subang parade for 5days.

Its so fun working at thr..but i din slim down la! HAHA
Thanks Wengseng for fetching! =)

Shocked

2010-04-27T00:33:00.000-07:00

Should blog bout this few days ago.

Last friday after dinner at Shamelin,we chat on the car while sending few of us home.
Then Kellyn talk about the Teluk Intan case,19 year old Girl raped after being sprayed with liquid.

i was like..OMG?really ar? teluk intan wor? Thr seems to be so peaceful. (im lousy..i dont read news)

Teluk Intan Tower

A 19-YEAR-OLD girl was raped by a man who sprayed her with a liquid, causing her to fall off her motorcycle and break her arm,the man then stopped near the girl but instead of helping her, began to molest her,also threatened to hurt her with his helmet if she tried to fight back.

The man then took her to a nearby public toilet and raped her,the girl walked home after the incident. so cham

Then when i get back home..my mom asked do u know bout the case that happened at Teluk Intan? "yea"
She continue her word on.. then its my 2nd time get Shocked
Because... we know that girl

Teluk Intan was actually my mother's hometown. my grandma staying thr.
we will go back thr every year.Then this Girl was staying right opposite my grandma's house.

Her house selling illegal fire crackers, and we used to go to thier house and buy from them every year. she was thr everytime to open the door.

I always thought that Teluk Intan was a peaceful small kampung.I changed my mind now.
Well, things was unexpected. felt pity for her. =(

Being Patient

2010-04-26T00:15:00.000-07:00

From my dad made his 1st payment on..
im waiting..

After 2days..
im waiting..

After 1 week..
im waiting..

After 2 weeks
im still waiting..

then the sales man tell me..
"sorry sorry, the colour u want is out of stock now"

" then when only can get the colour i want?"

"i think it will take a few weeks time,ok?"

"..."

After a few days..he called my dad n ask if we wanna chg our mind and pick other colours, if not we still gotto wait.

i must Get it before my college start >.<
still wondering what issit?
ok,mystery unveiled..

its a car

Nissan Grand Livina

Thank god!
my parents finally getting one for me =DD
ok gotto be patient rite now =X

Yesterday while having dinner at Shabu One
Robin lend me his brand new iphone for awhile to update my FB..
after touching it den im madly in love with it..
aww..wanna get 1 too

Then when i get back home.. saw my dad bought my bro Nokia mini N97
why bought N97 instead of Iphone =(

my dad say" N97 looks more like a phone"

HAHAHA!!

Its da time

2010-04-21T01:43:00.000-07:00

是时候放下了

我知道会很难但是不放下的话我会很不快乐

今天从好友那里听说了些你们对我的评语

原来我看错了你也是和她一样

我之前也曾怀疑过现在我更加能够确定了

还蛮难过的

我在想当初是不是不该帮你们？

帮了你们反而害了自己

但酱也好我更加看清楚你是什么样人

可能你们还是觉得我活该

对我就是

但是我已经改过了也知错了

难道就不能受到原谅？

对你真的很失望

我当"你"是最重要最要好的以为你和她会不同

真的心碎了

但还是想对你们说：God bless you

Guilty

2009-10-10T09:03:00.000-07:00

I am a spoiled child,

feeling hard and guilty for what i have done.

My dad, he was a great father.

he gave me what i want since the day i born.

he hearts me lot.

Look, what have i done?

This is not the right way to repay him.

I was acting like a mad cow,

Mum n Dad quarrel because of my stubborness.

Am been tearing for hours and hours,

regreting how the way i treat them.

I only wants to get what i want,

I always wants the Best thing among the others.

what a stubborn girl i am,

but daddy will always gave me the best thing that i want.

I am sorry,

for hurting you and mommy.

dont be worried about me,

i am not gonna do such idiotic action.

Dont blame on her,

thats the way she speak.

same as the way i did.

i promise you to face my exam seriously,

study hard and not to failed you.

Mom..dad, I am sorry

forgive what i have done today.

私を助けて！

2009-10-09T09:46:00.000-07:00

試験は明日!非常に困難な! (>_<)'' 助けてくださ!~だれか?

Today suppose to hang out with my friends,but end up doing revision at home,i am really nervous for tomorrow's exam and oral test. uhh..i have no confidents at all.

its already 2 a.m right now,i still got 1 more chapter to go.damn sleepy~but i am not going to surrender! gotta finish it now..haha

じゃ~みな..おやすみ (^_^)

disappointed

2009-10-07T00:32:00.000-07:00

You have gone almost half years.Remember? u told me to wait for u until the november's end.

its October now, u gave me an empty promise. Im kinda disappointed.

im not gonna talk much about it.

i'll not wait for u anymore because i know u are not there for me.

u are deep inside my heart.. but it's time to let u go now.